The love of God

Today I want to share something private story of my life and how God’s love saved me. Back then about 7years ago as I was about to Join College I lost my mentor, my dad. He was involved in a tragic accident but still the only one who lost his life. That moment was so saddening in my life and I felt as if I was lost. My mom was so sad and depressed I didn’t know what to do to cheer her up but we started to grieve together. I was not close to my mom then but through the grieving stage we grew fond of each other. With few months to join University and my mom had to fed for her, I just didn’t know what to do and I started asking myself why was I not the one instead of dad.

With the help of my mom, uncles, grandma and auntie whose story I will share later. I managed to Join Campus but it wasn’t all smooth sailing but I manage to focus on my studies for the first new months then the reality cam rushing back dad was no more, that’s the time I attempted suicide. I felt lost but this time I felt I didn’t have my confidant someone I could share my problems with. When the school called mom, she sent my Uncle who was nearby we sat and talked together with the school counselor and I remember vividly that day mom said “I don’t want to loose another person in my life right now I can’t bear it” those words kept coming into my life and she said dad might not be here but there is a Father in heaven talk to Him. I did talk to Him and He did listen to my prayers and he would hug me so tight and I would feel loved again by another Father who this time knew not only my joys and wept with me each time.

Years later I finished my course in Psychology but this time I had a new purpose which is to make difference in people’s lives. I wanted to help the grieving souls, I wanted to give hope to those who are contemplating suicide, I wanted to show them that there is a God in Heaven who can change people who can give hope and who is a Father to the orphan and Husband to widows. Today I Want to say God loves you. Whether you feel lost all you think everything is lost I was felt that way and here I am years later and happy in the Lord. There is no burden too heavy that our Father can’t bear. Whether you feel you’ve been looking for a job to no avail there is a God who understands all that.

If you need someone to talk to reach out to me, but above all talk to God. Each time I bring hope in people’s live I feel I am living and doing what God intended for my life and this I have the tear of joy. Instead of the sorrow I used to get I have joy that a life is gained.